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This is the last thing my brother Jim said to me.

It was the end of a text chain the day before he died – I had sent him an essay on how AI is escaping its sandbox. It could write code to other modules and basically plan its own prison break, making any computer system in the world vulnerable to a malicious bot. Major news networks over the weekend have picked up the story; another AI researcher, Jacob Coxon, quit Anthropic saying it’s ‘crunch time for humanity.’ In ten years time, we could all be extinct! Jim’s response to my fear?

“Chris is this you or a bot?”

I forgot to say how funny my brother was, how he could make me laugh over the absurdity of day to day life. He was Seinfeld before Seinfeld was born. For example, when he got off the plane from MN for the Bride’s wedding, he ended up at UVA’s ER that night for a stroke evaluation. My daughter was a resident at Vandy, but she and her husband had trained at UVA’s med school and were friends with the physicians rotating through the Charlottesville ER. One young doc looked plaintively at my brother, not knowing he was a psychologist, only knowing he was a relative of the Bride, and asked, “When was the last time you felt normal?”

Jim looked over at us with his mischievous eyes and a sly grin. Bob, the Bride and Groom and I all burst out laughing!

Surprisingly, my brother thought AI was the bees knees. He had just signed up for a course on AI management and was using it in his work. His opinion was it was coming whether we liked it or not. It’s a tool, he said, and we better learn how to use it or be left behind. I, on the other hand, hate AI, and I mean Hate. I worry what will happen to the creative class, to children who will never learn how to write a complete sentence, and now unfortunately, I need to add armageddon to my list. But it was not unusual for us to spar intellectually.

I was against the Vietnam War. I saw my friends getting drafted to fight in a conflict we had no business fighting for; coming home maimed and broken. Our step-brother Eric had returned from working on a kibbutz in Israel and felt the same way. When he was drafted Eric refused to carry a gun, and so the Army trained him to be a helicopter pilot. He flew a medevac “Huey” and was one of only two pilots in his unit to survive. I asked him once if he wasn’t safer with a big red cross on the side of his Huey. “It’s more like a target,” he said.

Jim signed up for the war as a matter of honor. A Columbia U graduate, he was always proactive that way, and ended up in Officer Candidate School (OCS) in Georgia. I found his yearbook, yes they published a yearbook of the guys who made it through that grueling program and beside Jim’s picture it said “Infantry”… until someone noticed his score on the final test and rerouted him to Intelligence, probably saving his life.

With a pitstop in California at the Monterey Language School to add Vietnamese to his CV, he shipped out. Jim told me he was mostly partying in the Officer’s Club in a French Colonial building that held daily press briefings journalists called the “Five O’Clock Follies.” Making light of his situation, and not wanting the Flapper to worry I’m sure. He was an Intelligence Officer with a balcony view and sly sense of humor. Later I learned he was briefing generals. Probably interpreting secret documents. He and Eric met up only once over there.

Back at the Bride’s wedding, Jim and Eric sat down in my kitchen and discussed Vietnam for the first time. Two brothers – one who taught me about Motown Soul and the other who introduced me to Pete Seeger and Woody Guthrie.

I found Jimmy’s Bronze Star at the back of his closet – for outstanding service against a hostile force in the Republic of Vietnam. He never told anyone that before he returned home for my wedding in 1969 he was awarded the Bronze Star.

I texted back to my brother, “This is me sending you a thing on AI” with a laughing emoji.

Jim loved quoting movies, philosophers and comedians. So of course he quoted Ronald Reagan, “Trust but verify.” I like to think my sister and I influenced him a bit, as his political views became more and more progressive over the years. I’m pretty sure I don’t trust AI. But I always trusted my brother to do the right and proper thing. I watched the Vikings game yesterday and thought about both of my MN brothers – the Vikings GM who stayed home to play with a friend on that July 4th weekend in 1949 when our lives changed forever, and Jim, who saw his mother, grandmother and sister laying on the side of the road unconscious and bleeding. He was only seven years old.

Today my sister Kay turns 92. In this picture from the Bride’s wedding Jim and Kay are sitting in front, Eric and his family are standing in the back to the right, and my Sister-in-Law, Jorja and my niece Lucia, to the left.

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We could talk about Jim Lynn’s exterior life. He grew up in the coal country of Pennsylvania where his Irish ancestors landed generations ago. He worked on the railroad to put himself through Columbia University; enlisting in the Army during the Vietnam War as a matter of honor. He became an Intelligence Officer.

Psychologist and businessman Dr. Jim Lynn died on Sunday, September 6, 2026 at his desk, at home in Shorewood, MN. His sisters were awaiting a weekly invitation for their Zoom call that never came. Born in 1942, Jim was the fifth child in a family of six. He was almost seven years old when his father, Robert, died of a glioblastoma.

One of his earliest memories is of seeing his father return from the hospital with his head bandaged after brain surgery. His first thought was: “I’m going to fix people’s brains when I get older.” And that he did!

Obtaining a doctorate in psychology at the University of the Pacific, thanks to the GI Bill, Jim worked first as an educational psychologist. But it was applying science to the business world that most excited him.  He never wanted to live a 9 to 5 life, he wasn’t about to punch a time clock. 

Always an entrepreneur, the newly minted Dr. Lynn started his own consulting business in 1980 after moving to Minnesota to be closer to his family. He became an advisor and coach to multiple CEOs. He was an expert in adult learning, and a consultant to civic and government leaders. His expertise in public service leadership was known throughout the Twin Cities area.

Jim met his wife of 46 years, Anita Pankratz, while studying at the Monterey Language School in California before shipping out to Saigon. They were married overlooking the Santa Lucia Mountains of Big Sur. She was wearing white go-go boots and he was a handsome, young lieutenant.

When his younger sister once asked him what he actually did for companies that were in trouble, he simply said “I’m like their priest.” He was the best brother his sisters could ask for, a loving husband and loyal friend.

Over the years, Jim has mentored younger clinicians and advised friends and family with alacrity. Whenever there was a problem with school or career, Uncle Jim was always available. After his wife died in 2016, his neighbors rallied to support him in any way they could. A beloved member of the larger Excelsior community, Jim died doing what he loved most, helping others. He never retired from the life he loved.

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Here we are, in the middle of another heatwave, and my First Edition’s Parnassus book was waiting for me on the front porch this morning. I left the house early to score some parmigiana cheese to make the pesto my August basil is telling me it’s time to make.

The book of the month is, “Chance’s Are…” by Richard Russo. He is a Pulitzer Prize winner, so I couldn’t wait to dig in; there’s always tomorrow for pesto…

Three 60-something-guy-friends are meeting up on the Vineyard and we flashback to 1969, when they were seniors in college and gathered around a TV to hear their draft numbers announced – like me standing in a deli line waiting for my number. Not. Not like that AT ALL. It’s hard, as a woman today, to imagine the gravitas of that first draft call for our young men in December of ’69. I know that some of my friends had to go to Viet Nam:

Who wouldn’t want to go to Southeast Asia and be shot dead in a jungle?

Some, like my brother Dr Jim, accepted his fate and enlisted; he went to OCS just to get it over with. My step-brother Dr Eric became a med-evac helicopter pilot, cause he told the Army he wasn’t about to shoot people; some friends were deferred for good and sometimes sketchy reasons, and some of them did a walk-around, like Lyle. He ended up training bomb-sniffing dogs in the states. I don’t know how that happened and unfortunately Lyle died last year in Vietnam, so I guess we’ll never know.

My starter marriage husband joined ROTC in 1969 at Harvard Law School. It was supposed to transition him into the National Guard, but that never happened. Clerical error?

Bob got a low number, but fortunately had well-documented asthma as a kid. Even today, if I get a bronchitis, he gets pneumonia. The Bride and the L’il Pumpkin unfortunately have inherited his reactive airway disease, which has been pretty scary in the middle of the night. Great Grandma Ada reminds us that asthma will keep our little Grandbaby Boy safe, always. I try not to think it can also kill you.

In the wake of Woodstock nostalgia, which Gma Ada made Bob retell again this past weekend, I find myself feeling adrift. The Big Chill group did a Face Time chat on the day of their arrival in a re-purposed school bus. Bobby, Dickie, Jeff and friends. They were heading into the unknown of a prolonged camping trip with music, mud and acid; while i was heading into a marriage in Cambridge, MA I thought would save me. A nice Catholic boy. Mea Culpa.

Bob’s been sounding wistful. Long before cell phones, how did he ever find Albie in the newspaper taxi on the road to Yasgur’s Farm?

I’ve been wondering what the hell was happening in 1969? We landed on the moon. We went to a concert about Peace and Love in a field. And we started a draft to send our best and brightest off to be slaughtered. What a country.

But even earlier, we imported slaves to our shores and killed Native Americans with impunity. 400 years ago, in 1619, twenty Africans came to Jamestown, Virginia in chains. https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2019/08/14/magazine/1619-america-slavery.html?action=click&module=Top%20Stories&pgtype=Homepage

And today a New York City cop was fired, finally, for killing an African American man selling cigarettes on the street in Staten Island. Despite clear video of the man in a choke-hold saying, “I can’t breathe,” it only took five years and a social movement to convince the police chief that Eric Garner didn’t need to die. Anyone wondering why we need a Black Lives Matter revolution should read last Sunday’s Times. And vote for Bernie!

I’m not sure who I’m voting for yet, but my fear is that Mr T, President “Bone Spur,” may try to slide us into another war, you know, for his numbers. His polls are dropping. And with him, it’s all about the numbers, the size of the crowd. Dr Freud would know exactly what that’s about!

Here is the school bus and the newspaper taxi 50 years ago. Did you know where your children were?

 

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Let me feel your psyche talk. Reading a recap of the news this morning made me want to break into song, sorry Olivia Newton John. It seems that Mr T is on a Twitter tear, which obviously means he’s not happy, and he’s setting the stage for his United Nation’s address today. What he will say to the General Assembly is anybody’s guess, but one look at his Tweets tells us he’s getting aggressive with the “Rocket Man.” And Nikki Haley’s response?

“He gets emotional.”

Awww. Imagine what would have happened if Hillary Clinton set policy via Tweets creating one scandal after another, and then her Ambassador said she was just being emotional? Imagine President Obama saying just about anything Mr T has said?!! Imagine any US President mock/striking a woman with a GIF of his golf swing! This is our new normal, we have somehow normalized the behavior of a 12 year old boy.

Last night Bob and I drove out to a lake house for dinner with some new friends. We have the shared experience of our daughter’s residency at Vanderbilt. Their doctor-bride-to-be will be married in January, and she is a Pediatric Orthopedist. We met Susan and Tom by chance at the eclipse, and liked them before we found out our girls actually knew each other. We had a lovely time and returned home in time to watch the premiere of Ken Burns and Lynn Novick’s epic documentary “The Vietnam War.”

I got pretty emotional, because my brothers served in that war.

I had no idea that the eventual leader of the Viet Cong, Ho Chi Minh, had first written to FDR after WWII for help with establishing independence from the French for his country. That letter was never delivered. After the Chinese Revolution, Russia was only too happy to help this nationalist leader fight for a united Vietnam.

I didn’t know a young congressman named John Kennedy saw the futility of this proxy war for the French. And that in 1959, the first two American soldiers were killed as they watched a movie. The incremental lead up to war was chilling, and resonates today with our troubles in North and South Korea. And so much is about the context of our time, and how that shapes our point of view.

In the 1960s, we thought we were fighting for freedom, because we were afraid of Communism. Fear pushed four presidents of both parties to intercede in a bloody civil war for French Indochina – we didn’t see the obvious end of colonialism. Hindsight may hopefully teach us something this time around.

If we can manage to not let our emotions take over; if our President can control his temperamental Twitter tirades; if we don’t turn our backs on history.

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On this Veteran’s Day, I’d like to pay tribute to my four brothers.

Michael Edward Lynn passed away last year, http://www.nytimes.com/2012/07/26/sports/mike-lynn-former-vikings-general-manager-dies-at-76.html?_r=0 but I remember when our younger brother Jim received his First Lieutenant Bar and  Mike had to salute him! He was 22 by the time I moved back with my family of birth., and was already out in the world seeking his fortune. But Mike served the Army proudly in Korea.

James Joseph Lynn was an Intelligence Officer in Vietnam. My psychologist brother had just graduated from Columbia University when he enlisted in the Army and was sent to Monterey Language School. He met his wife in California and only told me one story about the war. He was at the bar on the top floor of the officer’s club in Saigon when an air raid siren rang out in the night. Only one guy did what he was supposed to do, go back to his bunker. That was the soldier who was shot by a stray bullet.

It made a big impression on teenage me, that subtle message of karma, bravery, and fate all rolled into one little anecdote.

Eric Berla (step-brother) was an original beatnik. He introduced me to Pete Seeger and rebellion. We were both against the war.  Not wanting to kill anyone, but still having to face the draft, he enlisted as a pilot and flew Med Evac helicopters all over Vietnam. I imagined it was like being in a continuous replay of MASH, but in fact most of his fellow pilots never made it home. The red cross on his Huey was like a target.

John (Brian) Cerullo (half-brother) was career Air Force. He was stationed in Germany and later married a German woman. The Flapper’s second child never went to college but rose through the ranks and wrote books about radar, finally becoming a teacher. Though I didn’t know him well, I think we share a certain dry sense of humor.

Here we are at the wedding: Jim is seated in the red tie, and Eric is behind him to the right. Mike’s wife Jorja is in red, but he and Brian were not able to travel. I’m so proud of my brothers, but somehow just saying thank you for your service doesn’t seem like enough.

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